Intentionally Choosing To Live In Joy

“Do not ruin today with mourning tomorrow.” ― Catherynne M. Valente

I've been reflecting on the profound idea of choosing joy as an integral part of my journey through life. The path to this realization has been a unique one, forged through my experiences in Guinea during my teenage years. Looking back, I can see how my perspective has evolved over time, and I've come to understand the essence of embracing life as a divine gift.

During my adolescent years in my home country, I was consumed by a relentless desire to escape. I believed that all things wonderful and fulfilling could only be found overseas, and that I would only truly begin to live when I reached that promised land. My resentment toward my circumstances was palpable, and I sometimes even questioned whether God held some sort of grudge against me for placing me in that particular country. I directed much of this resentment towards my parents, particularly my father, for not pursuing citizenship in another country for the sake of our family. As a result, I spent many years waiting for happiness, eagerly anticipating the day when I could revel in life's pleasures, don beautiful clothes, and engage in the activities I longed for.

Fast forward to today, I find myself in a strikingly similar situation, yearning to be somewhere else, outside my comfort zone. But this time, my mindset has evolved. In the past, 'somewhere else' represented life itself, and I convinced myself that happiness could only be attained in that distant place. This mindset made it difficult for me to appreciate the blessings that surround me. I reside in a magnificent neighborhood, call a cozy and affordable apartment my home, manage my bills promptly, and, most importantly, I am safe and secure. Yet, despite these gifts, I often struggle to find happiness within. It was a moment of introspection when I had to pause and question if I was truly okay.

The truth is, tomorrow is not promised, and I cannot postpone living any longer while my heart beats and air flows through my lungs. The realization that there is more to life has come to me as a whisper from the universe, encouraging me to embrace the present moment.

Engaging in daily inner work has anchored me, making me more self-aware and in tune with myself. Throughout my self-development journey, one realization has emerged as a guiding principle: I am making a firm decision to live in the now and never again defer my happiness to an uncertain "someday." I have chosen to extend an open invitation to joy, a conscious decision I will make every day.

"The greatest source of happiness is the ability to be grateful at all times." - Zig Ziglar

With all my heart,

Salima