This time things would be different!

"If we did all the things, we are capable of, we would literally astound ourselves."

Thomas Edison

18th March 2020 is a date to remember, it changed everything for me, with Covid invading our lives, and forcing us to stay home and adapt by finding ways to deal with being with ourselves and sometimes by ourselves, I had no choice but to take a hard look at my life and my unhappiness which I was avoiding by going here and there and binge watching TV series on Netflix. Those two things were my silent companions, the sadness, the anguish of feeling unfulfilled, waking up every day hating my life and work, feeling like I am running but staying in the same place was too much to take. My life was not moving forward, every day looks the same. As a result, I did something I've never done before because I was stranded at home, I stuffed myself with a bunch of junk food and ice cream and gained weight because there was nowhere to go and those TV shows were not helping anymore. Feeling my tights saying hello to each other in a not -so -pleasant was unsettling to for someone who has always been skinny. I couldn't fit any longer in my teeny-tiny pants and tops and I was not in shopping mood so on top of the discomfort I was in, now I hated my body shape. Worse this time around I couldn't shut my mind with mindless work and TV shows, crazy thoughts started racing through my mind and for the first time in my existence my entire being was screaming at me "you gotta do something about it for real this time". Not being motivated about change for 2 minutes and then reverting back to my old ways. I needed mantras and I needed an action plan but most importantly I needed to take action. So I sat down with my journal and began listing the things I wanted out of life, how I wanted to feel and what I would no longer tolerate. Then I turned to God for guidance. Yes, definitely, this time things would have to change or else I would go crazy.

Truly Yours!

The Queen Of Africa